I'm listening to nothing
I'm feeling confused
I'm wishing I wasn't

So I get home from work last night and who do you think is sitting in my room?! Kevin. He came to visit for the weekend to suprise me. cute, right, i know. But I was still kinda pissed. I hate being suprised. Like that.

But anyway. He's here. And so last night the house was empty cause my dad plays golf on fridays and my mum volenteers at the local hospice. So (ok it gets a little less than PG here but deal with it) So we were having sex... and usually when we er... well at the end - I look up at him and usual I see him looking back at me but he had his head tipped down and eyes closed... and it was kinda... quick too... I mean I know we haven't seen each other in like a month but...still.

The I fall asleep later and Im all curled up in his arms... and I have this really crazy dream where I get back with Lex. Im dreaming about my ex while I'm in bed with my boyfriend. Future husband whatever.

So this dream... We were in the park back home in teddington while a group of our old friends... amd I distinctly remember pulling his arms around me and him kissing my neck like he always did... And then later we went back to his place and his mum was there and such... and then we were just laying in bed exactly how I was with Kevin, all curled up... and then my alarm went off. and I woke up.

Im so confused. The sex, The dream. ugh.